65 posts since we started.
I'm devastated, you're too. I cried and I know you did too. I don't know where this ends.
Should I go to my supervisor and say: hey, I'm gonna go back home to stand with my friends against the dictator? they may arrest me, they may kill me... remember what they did in 67. They just killed whoever they arrested. But that doesn't matter anymore. we started the way. we should continue, even if it takes several years...we have jumped into it now.
I cried hard. the next one can be you, my sister, my mom, Ali, Rouzbehan,... the next one can be any of us. once while jogging with mom in the park she said sth: you're not ready to see the death, to die for what you do...now we should be ready. we should no forget what happened these days.
Life will be more difficult now, they don't need to hide their ugly faces now. we are used to hard times, remembering that we were born in the war...but this will be more difficult, and we should stay humans. we should control ourselves while fighting with them, we should not become like them, dehumanized brutal bastards.we should keep the ideals and struggle for liberty.
I love you, good that we are alive and we still love.
i know that i'm not ready to die.., though that might be embarrassing watching all the bravery in the scenes.., but i should confess that i'm too scared to die, even to get beaten!
ReplyDeletei hate the stress i have. i call about 4-5 of my close friends everyday just to make sure they're "alive". this is just frustrating. i get paralyzed when ali goes in the streets and i can't get any connection to him.. .
my brother calls almost everyday to tell me not to participate in the demos and get my visa asap. he was going to come back home for summer next week.., now mom and dad won't let him to be back in such a situation. they haven't seen him for 1.5y now.
mom is crying all the time watching the scenes, missing hamid my bro, and getting anxious about me when i want to go to school or something.
life has become really hard.
we were out friday, me & ali & rouzbehan & amirhosein. i was cold and scared, smoking all the time. we were all thinking how happy we were just a month ago and how everything has changed now.
very hard days. the only thing we all have is our families, friends and the love & care we all share.