Now, the only thing that makes me abit cal is writing here.
I´m having a bad day. I have lots of works left and I am not capable of doing them. I got my GPA and it´s definitely below the minimum for PhD application. Which pisse me off. Why? cause I stupidly helped everyone in the class with some courses, and they never helped me back with my weak points. Now I have worse marks. although I think I´m more science oriented than most of them, but I can´t study for things that I don´t like or when I don´t like the teacher, and I can´t understand why people think of it as competition and I don´t do. anyways, they piss me off. I´m not gonna care. I´m going to get another master in humanities, even if it´s just possible in Iran. and start over. well, honestly, I admit I feel ¨not smart¨and ¨not talented¨because of my grades. but we know they´re just stupid marks. they have nothing to do with my talent:d

and thenwhy I take so many tasks, more than what I really can do?? you´ll laugh if I name them: I have two paper manuscripts due next Friday, one poster presentation due 23rd September, I´m in a team for some disaster management researches, I ´m writing a paper with my mom. I will be a rapporteur in the conferences I go in Korea. I am co organizing a NASA student contest in Iran. I should write the report for my company as well. and I should get my visa for France and Korea. and at the same time plan Mehrnoosh and Nima´s vacation, and go with them. Well, and I wanted to look for job but I simply don´t have time. what do you think???fuckin hell. and I´m helping a friend for his thesis. (oh, I see 90% of the works are volunteer work. I´m stupid)

and oh I forgot, hazhir told me they wanted to make a political group of leftists in Europe...and that we had to discuss it...and I was so busy to get back to him.:(