this is a new feeling...one of my ex boyfriends got married this week, with one of our friends. I was with hosein almost two years, and well, in my standards two year is looooooooooong. I was the one who broke up of course, but he wanted to annoy me, and make me jealous, and so he started a relationship with my close friend when we were almost done with our relationship. he kind of pretended to everyone that he was betraying me, and I was really mad. I felt myself really stupid to stay with such a kid for two years (fortunately it was all over). I don´t want to say it was a really bad relation at first ( we had a pretty good time together, and well he was a gopod pianist, and he was from a creepy rich political family, and his father had a philosophy PhD from Paris, and they knew lots of interesting people ofcourse), but sometimes some people turn out to be disgusting in some specific details. then I can´t help it, even if I´m sure he is a nice kind person.
I don´t know how I really feel now, I´m kind of feeling old, or feeling everyone is really really far from my life now. I´m happy with my life, marriage and stuff like this make me depressed. now that everyone around me is getting married- can you imagine: bahar ameri, minoosh mohaghegh, sarvenaz aghazamani, ima tavakkoli, my lovely sister,...- I feel like I´m the only person with this problem, that I can´t stand details of the people, e.g. how they smell. how they walk, how they laugh, how they show their love...does it sound stupid?It´s funny that I did not have time to find Rouzbehan disgusting. It is probable to do so given enough time.
I know how you feel. At first, I used to tell myself it's stupid to think of marriage, but well I don't feel that anymore. I do like to live with someone special, and I am really done with the dating fun with different ppl. It doesn't interest me anymore to be in just a sexual relationship, I don't feel independent with that anymore. That was actually one of the reasons that I started my relationship with Ali.
ReplyDeleteAs you mentioned, I have this habit too. I suddenly get into detail of someone's actions and can't bear them anymore. I usually don't get mad at ppl soon, but if something's bothering then I can't do anything about it. I used to think that would happen with everyone I meet giving enough time and spending close enough, literally living with the person day and night. But now, after living with Ali, I still haven't found anything bothering about him which makes loosing him more upsetting.
I'm happy not to see my friends married! I can imagine how jealous I would get! I don't know why ppl can get along with each other much easier than we do.
No it does not stupid. I feel that too. Or may be we're both stupid in that way:)) lol